beckham

Finally Back !!!!!

2011-01-05T01:12:00.000-08:00

Yes i'm finally back to this blog after so many years... Everytime i said i 1 2 post an incident on the blog and in the end i didn't. I was never strict on myself for alot of things. Partially it ended in the state i'm in now... No 1 to be blame except myself... I jus can't get myself to focus... Haiz...

Some much has happened over these years. I guess by writing on the blog may make me feel better and perhaps make me understand myself even more. I certainly hope so. This blog of mine is quite private actually... Not many ppl know about it... I never like to disclose this blog of mine to others unless they are trustworthy enough. The topics i sae here can be quite sensitive. You can sae this blog is my chu qi tong or punching bag. I have already more or less get rid of the old habit of mine: punching the wall to vent my anger. I seldom pull any punches liao... Those were the days when they were needed anytime when the need arises. I think i am still keeping the bandage that accompanied with me during those days. it has served me well... Maybe you can sae that i've grown up and be more mature...

Mum and Dad: It's not that i like to splurge my money away. I have my reasons for doing that. I can understand how u all feel. I know you all are worried about me. I'm already grown up yet I have accomplished nothing that you all can be proud of. I still give u all problems here and there. I know what i'm doing although in a way i may not be right. But i will never regret it cos it will be terrible to do so. It was a difficult time for me. I know I always delay on my payments. I know that I will be on time for that. I will do it on time. Dun worry, even if i have to suffer I will clear all my loans and everything on time even it takes me to suffer. I will sacrifice money that i set aside for myself. I know the importance of saving. I really do but I need some time to do it. Recently, those SMS that you have sent me have made me grow, made me realise some things that i never did. I think i shed some tears sometimes while reading it especially when you all sae " We all love you" my heart always melts. Take care man. I'm worried bout u all actually jus that i dun show it. Esp Dad, everytime when i hear u fell ill, I get veri gan chiong about you.

2 months more and I have to visit the Heart centre for check up. Recently, I onli had 1 small attack other than that i guess there wasn't much of a problem. Maybe my change in diet and gym sessions helped. I'm monitoring my diet veri closely now and fir the first time i actually went on a diet to lose some weight. partially due to sailing. i'm keeping my weight below 70kg now. I don't visit the fast food outlets often now. I even turn my head away when i see laksa, my favourite food instead i went for kway teow soup. I'm determined this time to keep myself fit and healthy. I still remember that my target to achieve my 6 pac in 4 months. I was never so determined before. This time i know I am. Thanks to you. You played a very big part in this. You made me survive through this difficult period. I realli 1 2 thank you. Back to the topic, actually I know i'm actually very scared everytime i think of my heart problems it's just that i don't show it. The thought of it is veri scary. I'm veri worried actually. I hope there's nothing wrong with my body. I'm sorry that i've abused it sometimes. I even cut down my alcohol intake and i don't even smoke. Haiz...

I guess i should sum up this post. I hope i wun have to wait for a few more years to update this blog. No, I shouldn't hope. I SHOULD REPHRASE IT: i will make sure i update the blog soon. Till den. Take care.

PS: I hope I'm right this time. I really do.

Back Again!!!

2006-10-28T07:25:00.000-07:00

Well... I'm back again 2 blog. haha... Sorry 2 those whu came visitin my blog but seeing the same post poppin out everytime. Been rather busy these few weeks. Wanted to get the club going and stuff. Very tired man actually. Not a easy job. Too busy tat i couldn't spare much time doin other stuff. Lost touch with nhds liao... haiz... I noe that they are preparin 4 the open house and also the upcomin syf.. doe noe whether i still got time 2 spare 2 help them out..
Now oso helpin 107 4 their soccer games. Well... i took this job basically 2 train myself maybe 4 the future and of cos helpin the kids to improve their game. I luv the enthusiasm and passion they hv 4 the game but it's also not a easy job. I dealin with a bunch of defiant and stubborn kids. Havin quite a tough time controllin them at times. tend to be not cooperative at times which lead 2 a slump in morale and team spirit in the team.
The gals in the class r veri supportive of their guys but I doe noe y I had this problem where they keep whinin and complainin infront of mi and behind mi.. I had problems concentratin and oso makin decisions. yes they r veri enthu n worried but dun cum 2 mi makin alot of noise n scoldin mi. I not sayin u all r bad lahz but u all should control yur emotions at times. As much as I doe wan 2 spoil yur mood 4 the game I hope u all cooperate with mi if not I may hv 2 make some decisions tat I hv 2. Guys of u all mus trust my judgements and put yur effort and play the game. You all wan the best out of the team n u all dun cooperate with mi. If u all hv any problems with ur positions tell mi personally. No point complainin 2 yur classmates cos they hv not much sae in the game but I do, so tell mi instead. Dun be afraid 2 approach mi. It's okie. I hope we all will perform better this time round. Let's jus hope at least.
SPSYC is going through a tough and difficult period now.. I hope we can pull through this time round n succeed. I hope u all can understand my position n my decisions. Attendance 4 trainin wasn't optimistic at all these few weeks. I hope it improves. I noe sumtimes u all r tired and sianz. The pressure and stress from studies has caused yur attendance 2 slump. But try 2 make the effort to make it for trainin whether it's land trainin or water trainin. If u all 1 2 do well for sailin den u all should spent more effort to come 4 trainin. If not how do u all improve ? I doe wan force u all 2 cum cos I understand how u all feel at times and I think u all r old enough 2 think 4 yurselves. I shall not sae much. The rest is all up 2 u all liao... I will still do my best 4 the club though but I hv my limitations too. Tat's all 4 todae.. Hope I can still post more often. haha.. Cya!!!

Hmmm...

2006-08-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

Well... Exams r here once again... Arrgh... Siao liao i'm worried bout 2 subjects man... Maths n CNET... i wan 2 go to yr3 n join my former class... it's time 2 buck up man... it all depends on mi now... well... studied quite abit from yesterdae n todae... 2morrow jus got 2 give 1 more big push n hopefully i can pass... den i can spent my holidays in peace... Watched ndp todae... recorded it down goin 2 watch when i hv more time... Well... i noe i seldom post lahz but sumtimes too tired 2 think wat 2 post... haiz... Fireworks was great this yr... too bad i missed spain 1... nvm... oh well.. i guess it's time 2 get sum slp liao...

This Time Round

2006-07-18T08:24:00.000-07:00

Well... izzit game over this time ??? Well... Will be gone ??? HMMM... PHAY i miss u all... dun think u all noe too but nvm lahz... Xiangz... i 1 2 spent more time with u man... Judgement Day comin soon...

Hahahaa... Well.....

2006-06-05T07:53:00.000-07:00

So... rarely blog now liao... Getting more busy now with sch work and SPSYC. BSC cumin up... the club's goin well now, things goin our way and freshies r doing quite well. Quite stressed sometimes when it comes to matters where u hv 2 decide who should i listen to or should i sae listen 2 both n cum up with own decision instead of chossin 1 out of the 2... Quite sianz lahz... being a President sometimes is not easy lahz... U hv 2 account 4 everythin u do n wat yur comittee behaves n how well yur club is doin... It's not easy man but it's not impossible it can be done... but i hv been wonderin how... i can't please every1... sum 1 has 2 give way... i hope tat they wun stubborn n be open 2 options lahz... there r 101 ways of doin things... not necessary yur way is the right 1... well...
Anywae was quite disappointed with sum ppl out there... i miss them actually but i dun think they noe n i dun intend 2 let them noe... i think they might be too young lahz but after all. But i get shit always when i tried 2 cover them 4 doin somethin... when the others tok bad bout them sometimes i felt helpless cos i doe noe how 2 help them... it's quite shitty at times... quite dulan man... but no doubt i still care lahz... Sianz...
Wanted 2 help out nhds n DI 4 their performances n ndp but sometimes i can't help it lehz... there is work to be done over at SPSYC... i would love to help lahz but sometimes i can't help it lahz... like sometimes jie yim will sae it's gd not be around 4 a period of time n let those whu take u 4 granted to actually realise how dear n important u r 2 them...
Well shall not tok bout this lahz... it's time 4 mi 2 rest now... my calf muscles r injured have wait 4 it 2 heal man... might take quite long 2 heal. injured during trainin on sailin on sundae... hv 2 do some physiotherapy lorz... hahahahaha...

Down But Not Out

2006-04-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

Well... i hv been hm since sundae... haven stepped out of the hm ever since den... it's gd in a way tat i can spend time at hm n rest all i could but sch is goin 2 reopen nxt week liao... i haven been goin out enjoyin myself or pei jx... hv been spendin the last two weeks havin SPSU orientation camp and settlin SPYC(Singapore Polytechnnic Yatches). now i'm down with a kind of skin disease called shingles in chinese we call 'sheng se' or grow snake.Well it's contagious n can spread... haiz... i get restless n bored at times... nvm... spend my time doin sum other stuff at hm den... there seems 2 quite abit 2 be done...
Since at hm now i think should blog den since i haven been bloggin 4 nearly half a yr... at times i can get bored but doe noe whu 2 find or whu tok 2... like every1's so busy i guess... nvm...
I hope 2 recover fast but of course i wun force it... i wan 2 join my 'daughter' xin ru on sundae... i 1 2 see my 'grandchildren'... haven been goin back nh recently... wonder how r they doin ??? of cos i miss seein her man... it's been weeks liao i guess it's been quite hard on her... take care hor... haha... well i shall end this post 4 now... continue another day i guess... HV FUN N TAKE CARE... cya...

Life

2005-11-08T12:42:00.000-08:00

Well... i suppose ppl hv been urgin mi 2 update my blog 4 a long time but i haven done so... haha... been busy these 2 months... sailin n workin... even went on a cruise courtesy of SP Bagpipers president Keval Singh Mann... haha... had quite a nice time spent there... had 2 wear formal wear 4 the last nite dinner... sianz sia... i hate 2 wear tat man... veri ma fan... feel like goin straight 2 the kopi tiam sia... think tat's where i belong... haha...
Den spent rest of my holidays workin n sailin on sundays... had 2 earn extra bucks 4 myself n sum1... haha... suppose 2 go 4 a laser pico race 0n the 6th of November but ngee ann polytechnic took all the picos over there n the onli alternative is 2 transport spyc's pico down 2 changi lorz... but hv 2 find a lorry n all charges to be covered by myself. the first i think of was my dad... he had lobang 4 lorries man... but after findin out the price, veri sianz sia.... it was $70 per trip man... haiz... so after all i couldn't race... kind of sad n disappointed lahz...
First of all pico races r quite rare cos it is not a racin boat more 4 beginers n it's a 2 man boat... i prefer team events rather den individual events n seniors cum 2 mi n sae it's okie lahz join laser events lorz... haiz... sianz... i hv tryin 2 let my seniors noe tat i prefer team events rather den individual but like no use... i wan my level 2 man den i can sail laser class 420... it's a 2 man cum racin boat...
I hope i can excel in sailin but i noe it's difficult cos i started quite late...
i oso hope 2 do well 4 my results this semester... difficult as it seems but no choice... it's been 2 yrs liao... so point thinkin tat i could turn back time... n oso hv enough time 2 accompany my family n Xiangz... haha... n last of all more time 2 post my blog... MuHahahahaa...

Should They Be Given A Second Chance ???

2005-09-12T03:13:00.000-07:00

Well i'm back bloggin again... Finally rite ?? haha... went to pa todae cos there is no sailing todae... den the ones performin nxt week r practicin their items... so the others practice 'gao qiao' which in other words stilts... there were 6 of them on the stilts... 2 from crescent n 4 from nhds... the 4 of them r sec 1 gals... haiz... the ones tat i feel cannot make it 1... character n attitude wise... i think they sux sumtimes... but u noe... a person mus try 2 adapt to the different environment n ppl sumtimes... taught them gao qiao todae n managed 2 tok 2 them... i should sae they hv 2 watch how they tok sumtimes... somehow their character were abit similar 2 mine 4 the fact tat we dun watch how we express our words... i think this is sumthin we ought 2 change or it might jus harm us... although it takes time 2 teach them... i learnt tat they r not tat bad after all... it's the same feelin tat i had with the sec 3s... well... i might not wan it 2 happen but i dun rule out the possibility of it happenin again... i dun noe... maybe time will decide... i still haven noe them well yet... everythin might not be the way i wan it... but i still feel tat there is still abit of hope but not hopeless... hope they wun prove mi wrong... they r jus being over playful n childish at times... As 1 of the 4 asked mi y am i n zhongyi fierce 2 them at times?? well i feel tat we hv 2 uphold our status as seniors so we shouldn't be too nice too them... while practisin their gao qiao outside the studio... i was quite fierce 2 them... the reason i am the 1 teachin them so i hv 2 care bout their learnin n safety, moreover mr low isn't around 2 guide them... i treat them abit like my students although they r not... they r mr low's students n so am i... he made mi like something tat i couldn't believe i could make a impact on... dance... so mus i oso make them hv the feelin tat i hv in mi... should they be given a second chance 2 prove themselves ??? should i train them to be wat they should be ??? i doe noe ??? alot mus be considered 2 make this decision...

Happy or not ??

2005-08-08T16:47:00.000-07:00

todae i manage 2 tok 2 my frens bout sum SpSu stuff... get 2 noe the reason y i was being left out of the event i was mos enthu n favourite project, HU Bazzar. i didn't intend 2 blame them nor i wan 2 find out whu didn't wan mi inside of the Event Coordinator I/C post. there r a few reasons y i wasn't choosen.

The Reasons are as follow:

1. My Character

I hv a quite bad-temper n bad attitude tat leads 2 the first reason i wasn't
chosen. Cos as a I/C, i mus set a gd example in front of my events team.If i
get angry or frustrated it means my team will lose respect of mi and tat's
spells trouble 4 my event.

2. Responsibility

As an I/C, i mus be responsible enough 2 take care of my team mates welfare n oso
make sure tat they accomplish the work tat i allocated 4 them 2 do. I mus oso
update either the chairman or vice-chairman wat mi n my team hv done. If there
is any cock up in the event or the if my team r not producing results, i hv 2 ans
2 the chairman the reasons.

3. Popularity

Although, i noe quite a number of ppl in Spsu but a number if them r jus hi
n bye frens. onli quite a few of them r realli my gd frens. As a result, alot of
ppl doe noe mi so they doe noe how i work so there is a suspense in their minds.
it will be a risk if they choose mi.

4. Follower

As Jia Hui(Spsu), my fren has told mi tat 1 of the reasons is tat i was a more of
a follower rather den a leader so tat leads 2 another reason. As u need 2 lead
the whole Events team, u require the leadership skils 2 lead n guide them.

My Conclusion

I acknowledge n accept the above reasons. i can only blame myself 4 tat cos i noe
i had already tried my best 2 prove myself n my ability. I am jus sad but not
disappointed tat i wasn't choosen. Somehow i noe tat the chances of mi being
choosen is veri low but i mus realli thank the ppl whu supported mi if there
r any. i knew tat after RDC my time Spsu will cum 2 an end. i dare not expect
myself 2 get choosen 4 any of the events in Spsu. It is the end of this era of
mine in Spsu apart from jus helpin out in doin sum odd jobs or sum events tat
might need helpers. but if there is other reasons tat i can't accept like being
prejudiced or biased i dun think i will accept it. i can onli sae tat i jus
'sway' lorz... bo bian mahz i dun realli like 2 por ppl or go do things i dun
like jus 2 get wat i wan. Anywae, for information, i will not let this event of
mine tat i hv worked hard in last time 2 fall or go 'hay-wire'. i will be
back again if there is help or advice needed or i think tat i should step in.
other den tat i dun think so lahz... haha Wat i can sae now is tat all the best 2
this year's HU event coordintors' this yr. Better do a gd job man. HU events
ROX!!!

Openin

2005-08-08T01:42:00.000-07:00

wohoo!!! BeCkHaM's blog is back online man... yahz MST is over... finally... wonder how well did i fare 4 my papers... scared sia... anywae wat's done has been done...
anywae... after goin 2 PA todae, mr low gave mi somethin 2 do... he ask mi 2 coordinate the ppl 4 the mooncake festival performance on the 16th n 18th of sept outside esplanade. anywae, was wonderin y mr low gave mi this responsibility instead of others... wonder wat's his idea this time ?? nvm lahz... i dun mind n i think it's not goin 2 be tat hard lahz... take it as a challenge lorz...
other den tat mr low oso mention tat he is havin a workshop on sept 4 if i nv hear wrongly n he ask us wat is singapore dance ?? wat is it n how it can be done ?? he oso mention sum stuff bout cheography oso... well it seems like sumthin 2 link with singapore n ask us 2 cum up with a dance but under expert supervision... anywae i think i attendin tat workshop ba n i think it's time 4 mi 2 start on my 'idea'... anywae tat 'idea' got link wat mr low said bout singapore dance. time 4 serious work i guess be4 handin 2 zhongyi 4 comments n checkin be4 i hand it 2 mr low...
i am not pinnin alot of hope 2 it but i will do my best 4 my first time... now still lookin 4 ideas n has been observin n searchin n abit of it has been done...i hope 2 learn more through this 'idea'. it may not be a 100% success but i put my best 4 it...

CLOSURE

2005-07-30T23:43:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION:
beckham's blog will be closed 4 a few days due 2 author havin MST( mid semester test). Sorri 4 the inconvenience as the author noe tat the blog will be outdated... haha... anywae will be back soon... cya all on the tagboard soon...

STRESS MAN!!! DULAN LIAO LAHZ... HAIZ... GOT 2 PIA LIAO!!!

FORGING AHEAD...

RAPTURE

2005-07-25T02:01:00.000-07:00

Pai seh hor every1 long time nv update blog liao... anywae on saturday, i went 4 rapture( an SAJC concert by SAJC dance society. i got the ticket by zhongyi and i went becos my cousin is performin in 1 of the alumni items called 'Ash Child' cos i wasn't interested in this kind of dance anywae but jus went 4 exposure n see wat kind of dance actually they r dancin.

During the performance, not onli i was watchin how the dancers dance but on other aspects like their props, lightings and how the audience react 2 their items. firstly, i mus sae their dancers r not lousy at all, technically, they r good n they smile alot 2 attract their audience. they hv alot of gd dancers in their society too. so in a sense tat i feel tat their choreographer emphasise alot on their dancers rather den other aspects cos i notice tat they rarely spent effort on their props n lightings. maybe they find it a hassle to hv many props ?? i doe noe ??

But from this concert, i learnt quite abit of things too, so it's not a wasted trip after all...

1. i should try 2 expose myself to different performances like rapture
2. i mus accept tat sumtimes we can't force things to be the way we want it... they
might be happy if jus dun force them 2 do the things they doe wan 2... like my
cousin's case i hv 2 accept tat we r 2 different kind of dancers.
3. i should be happy tat i hv mr low as my instructor, tat not onli he teaches mi
how 2 dance which he claimed he is not, he teaches mi other stuff too which
other ppl didn't hv the chance 2...
4. now i noe tat gals can live without guys... y ?? look at the sa's dacne items...
i dun think the guys r dancin at all lorz.. they r jus a prop bein used in the
dance( no offence but tat's how i feel lahz)
5. the difference between a dancer n a performed explained by zhongyi.

After the performance went out with zhongyi to chinatown 4 supper den later zhenyu joined us. took quite a long time 2 go there shall not elaborate on tat... anywae,i actually told zhongyi tat 1 of the performances in rapture was actually 1 of the idea tat i had in mind a month or two ago... it's bout how students behave in sch in recent years. abit like qi cai xue tang but it's a modern dance... quite suprisin tat it's a modern dance rite ?? haha... i oso abit suprised but the thing is tat should i continue with this idea or should i jus 4get it since it's not within my means 2 choreograph a dance item n will there actually be ppl interested in participatin( anywae i dun need ppl whu r gd in dancin in this item)... anywae time shall decide everythin lahz...

yahz... it's mi always...

2005-07-12T08:41:00.000-07:00

so it's my fault lahz... can't realli be bothered but cannot lahz... keep naggin bout it...haiz... sianz... doe noe wat's wrong with mi lahz...

wak tokin on the fone with jx, den my mum sae y cum back early nv keep clothes, when i actually did jus tat in the afternoon be4 goin sch... jus tat those on my rack r clothes tat r dried this evenin... sianz... so she scold mi back lorz... dulan here n there lorz... scold here n there lorz... worst thing i dun hv money now... it's in my mum's cupboard... chia lat liao... hv 2 last the whole day lehz... got 2 revise maths so hv 2 eat in sch den at nite got cs(community service) den hv 2 eat out... sianz... at least need 10 bucks lehz...

think i realli 1 2 quarrel mehz ??? it's jus mi lahz... they dun noe... my voice may be loud at times but i dun mean it... wan 2 noe y ?? i found out tat i hv dum difficulties hearin things at times... den i will tend 2 tok loudly at times when i didn't realise tat i actually tokin veri loud... think i wan this ?? haiz...

still the sae lehz... i still can't concentrate pn my studies... i still skip, cum late n dun do tutorials... SHIT MAN!!! i'm think i'm realli in deep shit now... jus tat sumtimes i doe wan 2 bother ppl so jus kept things 2 myself... i noe i dun like this course n tat i'm jus gettin this diploma 4 the sake of my future... i realli 1 2 put in my effort 2 jus study n do well... my class ppl r doin well but not mi...

it's nv nice 2 be in the same class with yr 1s... i dun mean anythin bad but the fact tat i dun feel rite lahz n tat they r smarter den mi or sumtimes i being left out... i dun blame them... it's not their fault at all... jus blame myself 4 failin maths 1B lorz... SIANZ rite ?? hope all these wun spoil yur day... if it does so sorri... i jus somehow relievin my stress...

guess tat i jus hv 2 push myself 2 study like how i push my juniors 2 dance properly... i hv 2 do this 2 myself torture myself in order 2 get things done... guess this shall be the rite way ba 4 now... No choice... CHIONG AR!!!

wat is this man...

2005-07-11T02:36:00.000-07:00

Wow... nkf has finally ended man. from this nkf performance, i've learnt and realise quite a number of things. Generally i think yesterdae's performance was quite gd jus tat the atmosphere wasn't tat gd... as in this dance isn't meant to be performed in mediacorp. it's supposed to be presented in places kallang n victoria theatre as it is an kind of arts...

i got approached by mr low 2 help out in this performance, thinkin tat it should be quite fun. but after everythin ended it doesn't seems to be the way i feel it should be... some people were treated like maids or servants tat can be call n order around. quite disappointed. sumtimes ppl still go missin without informin others. i feel and observe personally tat sum of performers attitude is quite bad... they tok 2 ppl whu r senior den them like they r as if tokin 2 their buddies or as if the seniors owe them a livin... kaoz... see alreadi the blood oso boil... this happen 2 mi oso...

i feel tat these ppl nowadays think tat we as helpers r there 2 serve them n spoon feed them... i suggest tat we should let them do it themselves... wan 2 drink water or get food.... go get themselves we dun even need 2 serve them... they think treat nhds is wat ??? their hm or wat tat we must serve them... they r not VIPs man tat we hv 2 serve them n there isn't a THANK YOU after tat... haiz... i noe tat we as helpers need 2 help them in some ways like:

1. keep their belongings
2. safeguard their props after performance
3. clear up the holdin area after use
4. help them if there is a probelem with their costume
5. direct them 2 performances areas or holding areas

other den tat they might be other areaas tat might need our help tat i've missed out. so should they think of their behaviour or they mus ZHI WO QIAN TAO. but if they dun den it's okie... i UNDERSTAND...

izzit a disappointment or ???

2005-07-07T11:36:00.000-07:00

So long nv post liao sum of the ppl whu visits my blog confirm will dulan y nv update 1 rite... anywae yahz i now post liao... been 2 a few places 2 buy things this week n go do community service....

Anywae shall touch on the topic now... been discussin these with a few of my close frens n i hv made my conclusion.but first some background.

On sundae, nh went to sentosa 4 a performance n alot of things happen there be4 they n after they perform.

Before

1. elephant came late 2 open the door
2. elephant went 2 lock the gate tat made mr low 2 climb the gate n the bus
coulldn't enter. HOW SMART RITE ??
3. elephant scolded male committe members 4 no apparent reaons
(some examples)
- scolded juncheng 4 not greetin her
- scolded jeremy 4 askin permission 2 open the gate
4. it rained when they reach there 4 not long
5. elephant n CO. start grumblin over things on students
6. the stage was slippery

After

1. everythin was chaotic instructions were either not carried out, not given or were
overruled
2. elephant n CO. actually allow students 2 go hm from there
3. important ppl actually got missing
- ppl carryin valuables
- ppl whu actually r in charge in sumthin
4. students start 2 go missing without sayin whether they r leavin with the bus or
not
5. the EXCOS got veri confused
6. the buses had 2 wait 4 irresponsible ppl

Based on these problems myself or CO. had made a few comments:

1. elephant mus change her way of din things be4 the students start protestin against her
2. students better wake up their idea man!!! stop making things difficult n be irresponsible
3.elephant and CO. hv 2 take much of the blame 4 the mishap tat had happen
4. EXCOS mus be vigilant against her n CO.
5. start to think of a suitable teacher in charge
6. be prepared for the worst always

Meanwhile, another event was happenin over the other side at media corp, DI n tanglin combine to present a wushu performance. overall, it was okie n everythin was okie but jus a few comments tat i hv 2 sae. for first timers whu actually performed wushu these is the kind of trainin we go through but sad 2 sae wat u gone through is not the worst. so be prepared. this is the kind of trainin we go through. i understand tat the time was a constrain n was abit rush but u all did quite well.
based on the performance, overall they all did quite a gd job but discipline was abit lackin at times especially on wednesday itself.

1. Punctuality
we should try 2 not 2 be late 4 performances or if we r meetin each other to go 4
performances, especially when there is transport provided.

2. Attitude
i'm not tryin 2 shoot any1 here but in any case i'm sorri... i feel tat sum of u
got sum problems communcatin with us.If let sae a person from from DI whu is
older den u he/she advise u or tell u sumthin pls dun give a negative reply or
bad attitude. we dun owe u a livin. somehow we got our reasons 4 tellin u wat u
did wrong or otherwise. there is a few cases i've heard or been through tat i
think tat'S Y i hv 2 stress this n pls show R.E.S.P.E.C.T 2 mr low,da huimin
jie jie n those whu r older den u...

3. Behaviour
i noe tat u all excited tat u all r goin 2 mediacorp tat u all r goin 2 see
superstars or idols. No1 blame u 4 tat but pls restrain yurself sumtimes
especially when mr low or sum1 is addressin every1 n give tat person yur full
respect. Pls dun turn yurself away from the 1 whu is tokin when a media corp
artiste pass by or even comment. i even noe tat u all commented when mr low tok 2
vincent ng. come on lahz both of them r wushu experts. wat's the big deal man!!!
wah biang!!! n i oso noe tat zhongyi commented on a few of u all bu sum of u gave
the replies tat u all shouldn't hv lorz... i dun think it's gd even if u dun like
him( 1 of u even reply " izzit yur business ?? y mus u meddle with our business)
i am exceptionally disappointed with this reply n it actually came from sum1
whom i think has potential.:(

4. Responsibility

y i mention this is becos i think tat sum of u dun hv enough responsibility. first
u all r responsible 4 yur own things like costume n accessories. not wait till
ppl or mr low 2 tell u wat 2 do... another point if u r unclear bout yur wushu
actions or anythin 2 do with the performance pls be responsible enough 2 ask sum1
2 help u not till when during rehearsal time u can't do the actions or the timin
is wrong or wait till mr low flare up or scold u... if u r being assigned 2 do
sumthin or take charge of sumthin pls noe wat 2 do n ask if u dunno not wait till
ppl remind u things tat u hv been told. n dun even push responsibility to others
unless u r real busy. U hv 2 stay alert of wat 2 do n when 2 do it.

Basically this is wat i hv 2 sae lorz... i'm quite disappointed this time not becos i hv high expectations or wat but the main reason is tat sum of the ppl whu has these problems r ppl whu r actually ppl whu i'm quite close 2. i'm not expectin u all 2 do miracles or wat but at least behave yurself n try 2 help others when u hv 2... haiz... doe noe how lahz... jus DISAPPOINTED with u all n hope tat these ppl can improve n realise tat things r not in their favour. remember this: no1 owes u a livin... u r responsible 4 yur own livin n yur actions... NO1 DOES!!!

todae

2005-06-29T08:25:00.000-07:00

well a gd day 2 start... lessons as usual den after had lunch with my former classmates n my personal tutor... had pizza hut... veri full sia long time nv like tat eat fast food liao!!! haha... :) anywae after tat went to FC5 foyer watch ppl play soccer in the multi purpose field. quite a borin match so ended up tokin with my classmates... somehow we were tokin lame jokes... hahaa!!! after they went hm n i went 2 union to hang out... played dumb(a kind of chess)lost 2 out of 2 matches 2 a freshie... haiz... after tat yong xuan(sp) came after class den went to bball court to play bball played with his frens n saw alex playin wiith sum experts. had quite a nice game lost onli 1 point wasted a few chances but later the hang of it n scored 2... pratically becos my opponent didn't blocked mi... played another match mi n alex against yong xuan(sp) n his fren. we lost 7-3. but nvm a game after all... after tat went back union n went inside exco rm n janet called mi over. GUESS wat... it's pay day the i got back money 4 nero's dream n cca week... FINALLY... den went to co-op shop with desmond n treat him 2 a drink. tok 2 him bout social stuff n xinru(my daughter). after went 4 rdp de-briefin. had a quite pathetic de-briefin as many of the com members couldn't turn up... after tat went back to union, grabbed my bag n went hm with kent... suddenly saw 147 n 106 i chiong down the escalator 4 the bus took 106 as i had 2 rush hm 4 dinner n chiong back to tanglin sec sch to go mediacorp. reach hm had dinner cool down den change my clothes den went to tanglin... as i was approachin the bus stop... i saw a traffic jam... my mind was thinkin sure late liao... but i still ran got into 100 to buona vista den take 147 den take 78 to tanglin... but when i reached tanglin the bus had already left 4 media corp... shit man... haiz!!! den called her n she said the bus had waited 4 a long time n so left... fuck man... i should hv not take 78 i should ran from clementi central instead... haiz... den msg her 2 ask if she nv told the others tat i'm cumin todae... but she did lahz... as usual she wun screw things up... but sumhow she mis understood my words n started scoldin vulgar language becos i started it... haiz...nvm... i think she got it all wrong if she n the others think tat i tryin 2 blame her den i 'm sorri i wasn't tryin 2 do tat... i doe noe y but i'm feel tat if they if they 1 2 think tat way den so be it... i can't do anythin. i already defend myself liao...aiya... den walk back 2 clementi central went 2 the arcade 2 vent my anger... i always do this when i'm stress den i will start playin daytona... my skills dip liao maybe i wasn't in the best of moods to drive but tried some moves by edison chen in the intial d movie not quite up2 mark lahz...haha... anywae after tat went to cs find wai kit den went 2 clemenyi again find da jun they all play pool. after tat actually i took 14 to go hm but kai wei called mi so i answered n his rehearsal is finishin soon i said i wait 4 him den i took a bus back 2 clementi again... had minced pork noodle den the seller like not happy like tat tell him doe wan mushroom den still put... got attitude problem sia... nvm it's quite gd lahz i dun think will go back there again... tai hwa noodles is the best... anywae after tat went 2 meet up with kai wei they all den tok over a drink den after tat went hm on 147... reached hm liao den finally sia... can take a break sia... shiok man... anywae i wun tok 2 her now lahz... her blood still boilin lahz... no point... but anywae i nv intended 2 blame u at all jus not happy tat u keep sayin things tat i dun meant by mi...

sailing

2005-06-27T03:42:00.000-07:00

had sailin yesterdae... yesterdae too tired liao den nv post.. anywae wasn't expecting myself 2 sail so fast but nvm got 2 sail on a laser pico n laser 16. laser pico is a small boat which can take up to max 2 ppl quite slow but veri sensitive to direction. laser 16 another kind of laser which can take up 2 7 persons at a time. has a cooler on board which can act as a store rm. laser can travel veri fast but it is quite slow in respondin to directions. reached poly marina at 10 sumthin n was late suposed 2 reach at 9 but woke up late. den i went 4 a short briefin den went off 2 set up the lasers. the parts were located at a store rm the store was quite big. quite lost at first cos quite complicated but nvm i will soon get used to it. after tat we had lunch. we had nasi lemak quite fillin n nice. after lunch was briefin on how we goin 2 sail later on. each laser will be allocated with an experienced sailor... i got a quite gd sailor with mi explained to mi how to sail the parts of the laser pico the DOs n DON'Ts of it... after launchin it den we sailed slowly towards the big sea den after tat she how 2 sail n how to turn left n right which means jab to turn left n tag to turn right. after tryin a few times i learn to do it. after tat i had a capsize drill den got into the water. haha... den came the 2nd capsize drill i got ito the laser first after tat the laser drift off when my fren the experienced sailor even get on. den i tried to jab the laser back 2 her but couldn't. after tat the power boat came to her rescue n i went to the power boat n another gal took over my place. after stayin in the power boat 4 awhile, i switched to the laser 16 n another sailor taught us how to control the laser 16. it's actually same as the pico but it's more slow in respondin to changes. i had a try 4 tat n nearly capsize the whole laser which no1 had tried it be4. lucky i was saved. the place 4 us to train was quite limited due to the other big ships tat hv 2 travel around. after tat we had to recover the lasers back to poly marina. after recoverin, we had to wash n dismantle the lasers. after tat i left the poly marina n headed to kallang... my first time 4 sailin was quite fun... i enjoyed it but i noe it's never goin to be easy. i will train myself up a be a experienced sailor n tat's wat i gonna aim 4. represent sp 4 sailin... quite crap n unbelivable rite but i'm gonna set it as my target.

todae

2005-06-22T09:01:00.000-07:00

had a quite wonderful day todae until when we played soccer. it was the juniors vs the seniors of spsu. i conceded 4 goals n 2 of them r my errors man. sianz... dulan sia... i was veri frustrated with myself. i let the yr 1s down man. guess i hv 2 train back my standard lorz... haiz... after tat had dinner with keval n alex cos i was veri hungry. we tok bout alot of things sia. quite fun sia tokin with them. after took a train with them n went to kallang mrt n headed 4 PA. cos there is a trainin 4 nkf nxt week. went there to help them with the wushu n since i had the time 2 cum down y not ?? after tat went hm with connie n kai wei. we tok bout of things sia like the murder case at kallang river. i oso chat with them bout sum sch stuff.den reach hm liao had a light dinner n wash up... now i jus need a gd rest. 2morrow still got lessons.

SpSu

2005-06-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

todae was the postin of results of the 46th coucil of SPSU. was rather suprised with the results but anywae it's okie lahz... hope this council will be better lorz... 2 of my children was choosen in the council. xin ru went into social committee although she wanted publication but i think social better 4 her lahz as in since she can get along with ppl well y not ?? summore she is under my gd fren desmond n there is oso jia hui 2 take care of her. should be okie lahz... jus afraid tat she couldn't take the pressure or sum 'ppl' might take advantage of her. hope she will learn 2 be more alert n learn more skills in this council. jeff went into human resource committee although he applied 4 sports. but of cos i'm glad he got into HR lahz. at least he can still prove himself lorz... abit weird tat he got in HR cos quite weird lahz.. his more 2 sports or social kind of person. but anywae i wish all the best 2 the both of them. Hope they will learn more n take gd care of themselves. of cos not forgettin my other kids of EPIRUS. hope tat we can at least keep in contact n do cum down n hang around in union. study hard n take care. hope 2 see u all soon...
daryL blogged

my future man!!!

2005-06-19T12:25:00.000-07:00

my future man!!!
It's tough definetely 2 study sumthin things i wouldn't like to. so those whu r seein or readin this. remember this !!! when u r bout 2 choose yur nxt step towards a new level be it anythin, jus remember 2 think carefully n make sure u like wat u r goin 2 do n dun regret. Cos there is an livin example here. the story goes like this:
a person got his o levels results, he was not satisfied with sum of his results but no doubt he still manage 2 pass his science n maths den at least can still go poly. so he began choosin his courses n short listed sum courses for example: Landscape Architecture, Computer and Network Technology, Horticulture and Landscape Management. he began 2 get interested in the first n third course cos he think it suits mi n he like it cos he likes nature and he likes buildin the environment n makin it a better place to be in. but in spite of his interest, he got rejected not by the school but but by his father. he was veri veri sad when he knew tat and so he put anither choice Computer and Network Technology instead. a choice he doesn't like n has simply no interest in it!!! but no choice he respects his father's decision cos he thinks tat he has experience and so he got into the course he doesn't like. when school started he didn't think bout anythin but jus concentrate on his studies instead. he tries his best 2 study in spite of tat he didn't like the course and so he continued studyin n forcin n pushin himself but sumtimes he siply has no passion in doin tat. now, he is seriously thinkin bout changin his course 2 the 1 he likes most n he thinks he wants it badly because whenever he goes 4 lessons it's either he's late, givin a lousy face or shows attitude or even sleeps. so do u all think bout this story ?? wat r yur views ???

beckham

2005-06-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

daryL beckham~ =P